#5

The Past...


The person, who said it influence now, was probably right. If you don't put away the things, that were a drag for us, they'll keep coming back in the present. 


I had a lot of "adventures" in my life, that had influenced me in a way. I hate loosing people, I care about. I trust too much and I attach to them, too easily. And that's a mistake. You can't trust people, and what's more, never ever get attached to them. They will leave you, abandon you, like a useless toy, use you and stop talking to you. 


My mistake is that I always give them a second chance, and they do exactly the same thing all over again. Or I just sit there, and wait, til they mercyfully decide to talk to me again. 


I turned on the computer today, and deleted all the pictures, videos, songs, that reminded me about someone, who just left my life. Any signs of their presence are gone, so that I won't be reminded of how it was before. 


I've spilled too many tears, and spent too much time thinking about the past, and that will probably never come back. 


I think it's time to start things all over again. Even if it hurts, and sometimes, you'll be all alone. 


This time will be different. It should be, it has to be! Because if I let that dominate my thoughts or my life, it's just going to negatively affect me.


"There will always be people in your life, who will tell you what to do, and how to dress, and who to be. Don't even let anyone take away your dreams, and who you are. Despite everything, it's your life, and you're the one, who will decide, how do u wanna live it. So live it the way you will never regret a thing"


Andy Sixx.